I WON!

GUYS I WON! AH! I AM SO BEYOND JOY RIGHT NOW! I've been looking at their store for months now longing over how much I want to buy everything. I vowed that as soon as I got a job I would start purchasing things with their REALLY reasonable prices. When I saw this contest I was like "huuhhh maybe this is my chance to win something...but I probably won't" I entered and FUCKIN BAM! I won. I encourage ALL of you who read my blog (what all 2 of you? lol) to go visit their store. It's really awesome.

Not sure how I'm going to do my hair for my Halloween costume. It's either going to be tease curls or wavy hair. This year I'm going to be a Jester. It was the easiest thing I can dress as with the clothing items that I currently own.

lookin sharp.

I applied to two more jobs today, hopefully something will come out of it.

Striped Shirt- Goodwill $4

-_-

Every night I have such a horrible time getting to sleep. I try and try, but it's not as east as it should be. I'm too stressed out about life in general. My parents did a horrible job at preparing me for this.

I made a video of me cutting my hair!

I'm going to start uploading more videos soon.

Today felt like a school girl day

So the Johnny the Homicidal pendant my friend Paul made in metals class in high school and I took it and made it into a necklace! It's one of my favorites. Today I have to finish my homework before I go home for the weekend for my little sisters 9th birthday! She's growing up so fast! I'll make sure to take pictures and post them on here.

JTHM Necklace -my friend made
Skirt- Second hand store for $1
Gray Pull Over Sweater- Shilouette store closing sale when I was 15 $5
Black Cardigan- H&M $25
Gray knee highs- Target (they are from my Yukari Paradise Kiss Cosplay) $6

2 awkward Moments Today.

That awkward moment while discussing an article done on nerd girls and nerd girl culture when the teacher's aid says "nerd girls strive not to be like everyone else!" and everyone in the class looks at you.

That awkward moment when the guy handing out pamphlets about "the true sin!" runs after you and frantically tells you you need to read about sin.

Popped Collar Bro

It's cold as hell right now at school, so I popped my collar. Feelin' awesome. haa. I just finished my Linguistics midterm and I'm feeling pretty good about it. Thank god for my ability to bullshit essays man. I'm so glad I'm better at writing than I am math. Except my professor put one of those horrible sections where you have to match up the names of a person to the theory they created. I think questions like that are total bullshit. Do I really need to know the persons name? It's only their theory that matters.

Anyway now I have to start writing my essay for Archaeology and study for that midterm, which really should be easy because I basically took this class last semester at my junior college.

I was also really surprised to check my blog and see that I have two more followers! Thank you guys! :D It really made my weekend! If you ever have any comments or questions don't be afraid to say so! <3

I GOT TO MEET MIYAVI!!!!

Last night was the best night of my entire life! I got to the House of Blues on Sunset at 6am and waited all day until the show started at 9pm! His show was just amazing. Miyavi's English has improved and he was talking a lot during the show. He also played old favorites of mine like Selfish Love, Please Please Please...and Jibun Kakumei! He even brought his adorably daughter Jewelie on stage an the audience sung Happy Birthday to her since yesterday was her 1st birthday. After the show my two friends and I who bought the VIP tickets lined up to meet him. The security guard who showed us where to sit kept telling us "no no sit HERE right HERE" then quietly said "this will be the front of the line, you WANT to stay HERE, okay?" and by god we were at the front. On the sort walk to meet him nerves were running high between my two friends and I. I had waited six long years to meet him and oh shit...I was about to.


When I waked up to him he greeted me with that all to familiar smile and asked if I had anything for him to sign. Unfourtanetly I didn't bring any of my posters or magazines with him on them, so I just took the posters they were giving out (because people bought a VIP ticket they got a free poster and guitar picks). He said he would personalize the poster for me and asked how to spell my name. I felt horrible because he was having trouble with it. He got the first letter "L" right, but when I said "I" for the next letter he wrote an "O" an I went "no no I" and he tried to fix it on the poster, but ended up pulling a new one out to personalize saying "it's okay, these posters only cost 50 cents". When he started to try and spell my name again I had to ask one of my friends there who is half Japanese (and speaks it) to spell my name out for him, but then Miyavi's wife who was standing next to him said "oh no it's okay let me help him" and I continued to spell my name out to his wife who told Miyavi in return the correct way to spell my name.

I also gave him two flower hair clips that I made for his daughters. I told him one was for Jewelie's birthday and I made another one for Lovelie because I know how kids get jealous. He said "oh thank you so much for making two, Lovelie gets really jealous sometimes of Jewelie". I then slipped him a purple envelop with a thank you note and pictures from my modeling portfolio (the thank you note also explained why I was giving him my pictures). It is one of my dreams to model in Japan an if he is able to possibly help me with my exposure, then why not at least try? I can lose nothing from it. And like Miyavi said on stage "thank you for supporting me all these years, I got here because I never give up!" and like Miyavi I will never give up either.

We then took a picture together and when he put his arm around me I just about died. There my idol of so long, with his arm around me, taking a picture. Holy shit. And damn, my face is all happy derpy.

After we left I almost died from joy, I have never been so happy when it comes to music. Miyavi and his music provide so much hope and determination for my dreams. He is living proof that hard work can get you to where you want to be.

Miyavi Tomorrow!

Getting ready for the Miyavi concert tomorrow! I have to gather my clothes, homework, make-up and set my alarm clock. Time to eat a snack and then off to an early bed time!

Stripes!

 No matter how thin I get my ass will always be huge D:

 I made this bow!

This is my outfit for school and my Westwood venture I'm about to go on to find a Kinkos to print out some of my modeling portfolio to give to Miyavi when I meet him tomorrow. I wrote him a letter in english and also had a good friend of mine translate it into japanese for me! I'm taking the chance that he maybe will give me a shot at being a model in one of his music videos or photo-shoots. I mean it never hurts to try right? and why not try at the source.

Dress- Khols $20.00
Striped Spider Hair Bow- I made! :D

The Lost Boys

 "Sleep all day, party all night, never grow old, never die. It's fun to be a vampire"

I wore my Lost Boys shirt today! I used to be obsessed with this movie in high school! I went with my friends one time to see it again re-released in a large theatre, ahh it was so much fun.

I bought the shirt on clearance at Hot Topic for $13 with a birthday coupon for 15% off :D

My phone is my boyfriend

Just got out of the shower and going to go talk to Zack on the phone like I do every night! It's my favorite time of day.

Some pictures of Zack and I :]

Lol I love going to Orange County because of all the stares I get! There are not thagt many goths out there so to see one for most people is for some reason a big thing. Zak and I took the bus around and people would literally stop their cars to look at us. HAHA!

Pictures With Angelspit!

 After the Hollywood show The Liar took screaming pictures on his phone of my boyfriend and I and gave us a lot of hugs. He fucking ROCKS!

 A picture taken of Amelia Arsenic and I with Valerie's camera. Totally showing off my awesome Angelspit bag!

 Amelia and I taken with my camera. She is the nicest most genuine person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and is a huge inspiration to me. I love strong female singers! Like Jessica from Jack Off Jill and Chibi from The Birthday Massacre! They help me keep my head up in this world and continue on fighting for the things that I want most.

My boyfriend and Zoog! Taken with my camera. Zack (my boyfriend) was so excited to meet them, it was adorable. He has loved this band even longer than I have and this past weekend was his first time seeing them. Zoog is so utterly down to earth and an overall amazing person to chat with :]

I can't sleep...

it really' isn't surprising.

:[

Seeing as I had the best time ever at the Angelspit shows this weekend with my boyfriend, coming back to the reality of my life today was harsh. Being able to spend time with him is the most amazing gift ever and if you have ever been in love you will understand. If you haven't been in love yet then I'm excited for you to experience it in the (hopefully) near future.

I really wish he didn't live so far away. We have been in a long distance relationship now for three years and these past three years have been the hardest of my life. I'm not a believer in fate or a higher power, but he and I met totally by random chance on New Years a few years ago. It's only this instance that sort of makes me believe in fate. Because he is the good thing I had been waiting for.

Literally, he is the nicest, smartest and funniest person I have ever met. He is the only person that has ever stunned me to silence. Let me expand...I usually am very talkative to new people that I meet and I always have some lame ass comment to make to everyone. The first time I met him though I couldn't speak the entire night. I didn't know what to do or what to say and it is the only time this has ever  happened to me. I really really love him.

So today coming back to my reality of him not being here is so hard. I might be able to see him in two months for a longer period of time, but it is still not set in stone. If I do get get to see him though after that trip I have to wait six months to see him again in the summer. Having a school obligation makes things harder than they have to be especially because what I want to do with my life doesn't involve school. Like everyone I hate the grind. I just wish mine would end. I have two more years to grind through until I graduate and can do the things I actually want to do.

Sorry for my long pissy post, but I just had to get it out.

Angelspit Tonight! Part 1

If anyone know really knows me, they know my favorite Industrial artist is Angelspit. I get to see them tonight for a second time and then tomorrow for a third time! I'm beyond excited and I absolutely love them, but why you may ask. Well let me tell you...

I admire their songs, fashion and their strong dynamic lyrics. When I listen to an Angelspit song I feel as though I'm not alone in the world and all of my frustrations and anger can be released through listening and singing along with them.

I'm very quick to anger and when I get filled with rage, I just listen to them and I automatically feel better about whatever I'm raging at.

I also am in love with their fashion. I mean look at the picture I posted above! Google their name! Look at it! Really do I need to explain more? haha.

Really why I like them is very simple, but it means a lot to me. I encourage you to go look them up, you will not be disappointed.

No Job.

The fact that I have tried my hardest to find a job and applied EVERY FUCKING WHERE and STILL have no job is maddening to me. I'm quickly running out of money and won't have enough to pay my cell phone bill next month. How is it that I was awarded work study and still cannot find a job? Why did that one employer mislead me and never call me back or return my emails? I really don't want to let this bother me this weekend of all weekends, but I can tell it is going to.

Being an student is ASS!

I finished my linguistics paper that it due on Monday and am now redyeing my hair Electric Blue! After that I'm getting ready for this amazing weekend!

New Shoes :[

I decided to wear my new shoes today! Sadly, while breaking them in I blistered up both of my big toes and the underside of my foot, so when I took them off my feet were bleeding. Is fashion really worth that much pain? Yes, I think so. I mean just LOOK at them! They are super cute and were super cheap.

I just got finished doing my first field research for Anthropology (if you didn't know I'm a Cultural Anthropology major at UCLA)! I'm currently looking at how worshiping (musical) bands in christian churches evoke both physical, emotional and vocal responses from the people attending. It was pretty intense and I ended up writing twelve pages of field notes. I have to finish writing my first part of this paper tomorrow, so that I'm FREE this weekend when my boyfriend comes out. 


Dress- Silhouette $12
Shoes- Demonia Ebay $20
Angelspit Hair Flower- I made! If you want a flower I custom make them and also have some for sale on my etsy store. Just look up InfectMeZ

LACMA

I never posted pictures of me when I went to the ASCO exibit at LACMA!

The exhibit was absolutely amazing. I loved hearing the two artists that were presenting the exhibit recount the events and stories of their lives that was happening at the different moments when they were making their particular pieces.

I also had my roommate take these pictures of me :D

Dress- Forever 21 $24
Thigh Highs- American Apparel $18
Doc Martins- $115

I really should be doing research

My excitement for my boyfriend coming out this weekend to see Angelspit with me is starting to become unbearable. I haven't seen him since my birthday in July and before that it had been over a year! I still have to pick out what I'm wearing to Angelspit D: However, I really should be doing research for my papers...I can always do that later >:]

Dress- H&M $5
Sweater- Random store at the mall $50
Blood Vile Necklace- Anime Expo Seller $5

Take a hint.

I hate it when people will not take a hint and leave you alone. For the second week in a row some sleazy guy keeps bothering me. One time while talking a condom "accidentally" fell out of his pocket and he keeps saying "sup girl" while continuing to sit next to me and act interested. When I politely asked him to stop and just leave me alone he still continues to bother me. Sorry bro, I have a wonderful boyfriend and I'm not interested in you or your sleaze. 

Blah

Time to go kill myself in Old Norse. I'm so not prepared for my daily headache in that class ;__;

Dress- Target $12
Tight- Mervyn's $5 (they are super old)
Sweater- H&M $25
Flower Hair Barrette- I made which you can find on my etsy store. Just look up InfectMeZ

Don't Wanna...

I'm trying to translate my Old Norse homework...I really am. It's just tumblr it calls to me and I just can't help it. I have to keep saying to myself "YOU MUST GIVE A SHIT AND GET GOOD GRADES!" But I really don't want to. It's hard enough concentrating knowing that I get to see my boyfriend on Friday and I get to see TWO Angelspit shows with him this weekend. FUCKKK.

AHHH!!!!!

Smoothe Time!

I can't figure out how to tun the picture right side up. I'm too tired to keep bothering with it. I just got back from LACMA and it was AMAZING! I'll post pictures later. For now I made a strawberry apple smoothe and boiled eggs. :D

LACMA Tonight!

I'm going tonight with my roommate to LACMA to see the Asco exhibit with special guests Harry Gamboa Jr. and Willie Herrón. Safe to say I'm fucking excited.

I got the rest of my pictures from my last photoshoot!

These ones are my favorite.