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Seeing as I had the best time ever at the Angelspit shows this weekend with my boyfriend, coming back to the reality of my life today was harsh. Being able to spend time with him is the most amazing gift ever and if you have ever been in love you will understand. If you haven't been in love yet then I'm excited for you to experience it in the (hopefully) near future.

I really wish he didn't live so far away. We have been in a long distance relationship now for three years and these past three years have been the hardest of my life. I'm not a believer in fate or a higher power, but he and I met totally by random chance on New Years a few years ago. It's only this instance that sort of makes me believe in fate. Because he is the good thing I had been waiting for.

Literally, he is the nicest, smartest and funniest person I have ever met. He is the only person that has ever stunned me to silence. Let me expand...I usually am very talkative to new people that I meet and I always have some lame ass comment to make to everyone. The first time I met him though I couldn't speak the entire night. I didn't know what to do or what to say and it is the only time this has ever  happened to me. I really really love him.

So today coming back to my reality of him not being here is so hard. I might be able to see him in two months for a longer period of time, but it is still not set in stone. If I do get get to see him though after that trip I have to wait six months to see him again in the summer. Having a school obligation makes things harder than they have to be especially because what I want to do with my life doesn't involve school. Like everyone I hate the grind. I just wish mine would end. I have two more years to grind through until I graduate and can do the things I actually want to do.

Sorry for my long pissy post, but I just had to get it out.